Distractions.

Why is it that I always put things in my life to distract me from my Father?

I pray daily that my heart is all for Jesus.. I pray that He will be the center of my relationships.. I pray that I don't get distracted and that I never stop believing and having faith in Him.
But yet, I do.
Maybe God puts things in my life as tests to see if I will become closer to Him, or stray away from Him like I often do.
You'd think after this long, I'd start passing His tests.. But I don't.
Mostly because I am putting no effort in. I am asking for soo much from Him, yet I am not even trying. I never strive to make my heart all for Him, I just ask for it. 
It's my heart.. I have to work to make it for Him. Duh.
Not sure why I thought it'd be as easy as a simple prayer and it would just suddenly become on fire for Him..

Gah.

I pray that I would stop going through these cycles and just be all for my God all the time. I'm tired of feeling lost and discouraged because with Him, I have clear sight and I am encouraged every day. With Him my heart is pure and my life events are only to praise Him.

I feel convicted. My heart is heavy.

I yearn to be obedient to Him.
I yearn to be closer to Him.
I yearn to have all the passion in my heart to be all for Him.
I yearn to want to be more like Him.
I yearn to thirst for Him.

I WANT TO YEARN FOR HIM.