Forgiven.

My heart is crazy beating in my chest as I begin to write this post.
It has been almost a year.. and let me tell you why-

I fell away.
I fell hard.

The first step is to admit. Admit that you were wrong. That you went against all the good in your life and that is exactly what I did.
I broke my own heart. I let myself down but more than anything, I let my God down. I lost faith. I lost hope. I lost belief.

This has been the hardest struggle of my life. I got to a point where I didn't even feel worthy to pray. I felt as if I wasn't good enough.
How sickening.
My Father always believes in me. Always trusts in me. Always gives me His all.
But I don't do the same for him and I haven't for the past year of my life.

What a waste of a year..

This is a feeling that I never wish to feel again.
Getting back on my feet and back on my walk with Christ hasn't been easy.
It has taken an immense amount of prayer..

I feel shameful. I feel weak and most of all I feel absolutely and completely embarrassed.

My God is good. My God won't ever leave me and my God will give me strength.
I have prayed for forgiveness almost every day for the past two months.


Let me just tell ya'll how empowering it feels to know how merciful and gracious the Lord is. He has forgiven me.
Praise Him. For he is the almighty.

He has picked me back up and I have finally given Him my heart back.
He has covered my sin and my shame.
My life is at peace once again.


"Oh, I'm running to Your arms, I'm running to Your arms. The riches of Your love will always be enough. Nothing compares to Your embrace.. Light of the world forever reign!"