The POWER of confession.

It's true.. you should confess to other so you can be forgiven.
It says so in the bible.

James 5:16 states,
"therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective."

But how easy is it to confess all of your faults to others? Are you scared that you will be judged?

I sure am..
It terrifies me.
If I were to tell everyone about alllllll my sins, people would have a completely different view of me.
But if confessing means that others would pray for me, that I would be healed.. Then why wouldn't I do it?
To be honest, I don't want this blog post to be seen by everyone. It's risky, and it's something that I feel veryyyy unsure about.
But if I want to completely give myself up to God. If I want to be ready for Him, then I have to surrender myself. I have to rid myself of sin. And I have to start living a life that only glorifies God.
And if that means confessing my faults for everyone to read, then okay. I should do it.

I don't even know where to begin, but I will try my best to not be all over the place. 
Here it goes:

1. I often find my value in being noticed by guys.
2. A lot of the time, I only think guys will like me if I give them what they want, when they ask for it.
3. I'm terrible at communication, therefore I will avoid it and put myself in compromising situations.
4. I want more than anything for guys to start noticing me by my heart, not by my looks. But first, I need to change myself so that they may do so.
5. I have great potential, I just can't seem to get on the right track.. and stay on it.
6. I struggle daily with my walk with Christ.
7. Distractions are huge for me and easily influence me.
8. I find myself "going to the line" without actually crossing it and thinking it's okay.
9. I find it extremely challenging to lay down my life for God.
10. I break my own heart daily because of my sin.
11. About 50% of my thoughts every day are impure.
12. I often get distracted when I pray and don't actually speak to the Lord.
13. I feel "lonely" if there isn't a guy I can talk to or who is acknowledging me.
14. I constantly look at others and wish I was more like them.
15. I always feel like I'm not "good enough" because of all my failed relationships.
16. I listen to the enemy more than I listen to God.
17. Every day, I look for the next guy instead of patiently waiting for God to bring him to me.
18. I lose faith easily and doubt myself.
19. I give guys way too much.
20. I've damaged my heart to the point of it needing years and years of healing before it can fully love my future spouse.
21. I need to learn to love myself before I can love God.
22. I fall back into my old habits because they are something I know how to do very well.
23. I give my heart away like it's nothing special.
24. I try and impress others way too much, for the wrong reasons.
25. I make promises to myself and to God all the time, and I always break them.

I'm sure there are plenty more that I could put on this list. I am not perfect in any way!

To be honest, confessing all of that, strangely enough.. feels kinda good..
Not saying I will never do those things again because, God already knows I will. But I am nothing without God.. And I know that with all of my heart. He is the reason I'm able to confess. He gives me strength.
Philippians 4:13
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

With prayer and encouragement.. I will defeat all of these sins.